Hai..everythign was juz not rite 4 me..
Basketball so sucky..i hate the word sucky but it muz be real sucky to make me use that word..

Bball use to be my fave but nw i felt so lost..
I may love it but it's not teh same old Jasmine that use to have so much passion 4 it..
Now i thk bball 2 me is too competitive den playing it becoz i love it..
Everything is different nw..So So So different...
I even felt that i have lost my own self..my normal self..
I even lost my mp3 nw..the ting tt i needed most and pei me through my sad time..
Its nw gone..Forever gone..even my mp3 wan leave me..
Everything is abandoning me..

My mp3 myself is leaving me...
I felt so lost...lost in myself...i'll try try to b normal..
But i felt so fake..so jia..
Hai..but being hapi will make every1 hapi den juz b it ba..
Its beta to b sad urself den making every1 sad wif u..
and i totally agree...
I felt so stress...so tired and so sian...
i JUZ FEEL LIke tAKING A BREAK FROM EVERYTHING..
I JUZ FEEL LIEK ENDING EVERYTHING IN MY LIFE NW..
Maybe i juz plain tired...
Mayb i care abt others too much..
This may show i juz can't be wat i wanna be when i go up..
Reali i shld juz gif up my dream as a social worker..
I'm juz nt cut to be one..

Maybe my frenz juz dun understand hw impt dey are to me..
Their joke may be joke to dem..
but sumtime i juz take it too hard...
I'm feeling tired..
Dun like to guess...
Knew they are joking but still sad coz i care...
I put frenz ist coz i believe frenz are 4eva..
Nw i dun even noe does my frenz noe dey are so impt
tt every ting dey say can affect my mood
everyppl...I REALI DO CARE ALOT...!!!!
But sumtime i'm reali tired...
Reali i sumtime juz feel liek heck care everything and dun go out..
juz be wif myself n myself..
But nw even my own self is lost..hu is dere...it left wif noone..
even my closest self leave me...
Even bball that i once loved is difted away from me...
I duno y juz duno y..
Wat have i become to?? i person that i dun understand and dun feel close to nw...
I reali feel liek crying all out..But i dun like to let ppl c my weak side..
Coz i have to be strong to take care of dem..
And y shld i cry out to let ppl noe..
It is juz betn my old self and my new self nw..

Everthing juz dun seem rite..
MAybe i juz tired..t..i.r..e...d....f.e...e..l.i...n...g...v...e...r...y.....t.i...r....e...d