i have so much to say...sosososo much like its always endless...
I finallyu noe wats the use of diary..to say thing that u cant find any frenz to say..
you do not wish anyone to noe..is all ur deep feeling..

Putting a strong front is nt easy..putting a smilez always is not easy..
It may look easy btu it's not..
Sumtime i juz feel like crying all out..n pour out to sumone..
But i juz find the right person..
I Found 1 and wan tok to her..but now she is ignoring me now.
Even she ignored me.. Who is there to care abt me...
WHO! WHO! WHO JUZ TELL ME WHO!

Today is juz a sucky say..a day that i'll nv forget...
I promise my most precious mei that today morning i wun be late in meeting her to study..
BUT i broke the promise..i broke the trust..
She was so upset..she was oready very upset the past few days...
IDIOT me add on to her sorrow...DO i worth to be her JIE?

I lied..i said i found my frenz..and pei my frenz so busstop
but i actual fact i went to the carpack alone..
To cry..!! i do not wish them to see that i'm sad..
Coz i noe i'm at fault and i've no reason to cry..
I'm Sori that i lied..

Sumtime i juz thk i'll always adding saddess to ppl...
I'm always the cause of ppl saddness!! y am i here den?
Sumtimes its reali hard to look after so mani ppl..
Ppl ard me is all so upset and it makes me upset to see ppl upset..
Cause they are all my frenz i care for dem..but sumtime i juz feel tired...
JUz Too tired to do anything, juz lost wat can i still do for them?

i noe i'm stupid..stupdi me still wan to be a social worker like this
Thk i can juz throw away my dream..i jzu sux!

i tok to her she din care abt me..Does she noe it makes me feel upset seeing her upset..
does she noe her every movement and additute means alot to me?
Does she noe i treasure her alot? Does she noe i need her..does she noe i appreciate her
Does she noe she is my most precious mei..and she will always be there for me..
Thus i aso wish i can always be there for her..to comfort her...to console her..
Does she noe i wan to share her sorrow? and every happiness i wish to share with her?

I juz sms her..she told me she is lost and ask me dun care abt her and go rest go slp..
Do u Thk i can? Do u thk i juz can go rest? NO!!
I'm lost too..lost in how can i appoarch her...
The way she ignore me the way she sms me..makes me sad..
I cried...coz i felt like i'm like gg to lose one mei?
like i all lost in a dark forest and i felt so helpless..

I was anxious and worried..and i felt so sad when she say she felt like so unwanted...
I noe in my heart i wan her i need her i treasure her n i love her..
I'm scared to lost my mei..
I hope she understand i reali care and i wan share my everything wif her..
Hope evrythign will be fine..
But i Will NV foget this very day..a DAY THAT WILL STAY IN MY MEMORIES FOR LIFE..

this day is juz like the time we have wif a frenz..i was so afraid that i'll lose a frenz..
Hope she will not feel so upset alwasy.. hope a day a sweet will make her smilea always...
i hope everyone ard me will be happi and i'll be contented..