Happy birthday everyone..today is ren re :)
chu qi le wor..so fast..time reali flies..
Chinese new year gg end soon le..

Today we got to noe the elective we got in...
I so hapi i got into the independent study de..
The course quite difficult to get in average B..
I'm so happy that i qualify :)
But duno wat to do..haha
I thk this sem i wun be able to do well..
My result was like quite not gd..
Hope i can do better :)

Nxt is the thing i'm v excited over...
IVP..our ist match...
Got to court to warm up v early...
our team started to warm up..
I lay-up..i actuali lay-up..
Sumhow the feelign make me feel strange..
I felt bball was like a stranger 2 me..
Duno why..it seems 2 have drifted apart from me..
I was hoping to play..
However yet..i'm very scared..
So scared in my heart..hoping i can juz warm the bench...
But teh other hand..v bu gan xin..
since i warm up le...
In the end ah kok din put me down..
He looked at my leg n look away..
I noe myself..i still in the condition to play..
My knee is still v weak..
Anytime it will be injured again..

Duno y felt quite irritated today...
Was quite moody but duno for wat..
I duno why am i feeling tt way..
I'm v glad that SP have won...
However..i got a feeling of a turtle..
A turtle that like to curl inside the shell...
I felt so meiyoung..so weak...so cannt do anything
I'm happy but teh happy juz cant come out..
Sumtime trying to b strong is nt a good thing..
Maybe sumtime i shld b weak n depend on sumone..
But everythign will be juz fine hu ask me injured..haha
Ben dan me ....

Waiting 4 lan zhong..
Sitting dere looking at my own sch team play..
I can do anything to help..
I cant contribute..I may bot be gd...
However i will nv say die...I nv gif up in a match...
My coach once say..nothing is set not til the end of the game..
We muz trust each other...
We muz trust our teammate..
Basketball is a team game..not a individual game..
Hence i believe..i can help my teammate this way..
Provided i'm alrite..i'll help all i can..

I miss the time of my shao nian bei..
WHen everyone was so ping..
Playing our best..helping each other in defence..
When ah bin was not around..
The team play even harder.The time was so memorable...
The time when i was teh ah gu...
can cut can shoot can get rebound can fast break..
The ah gu that fast break...CHIONG!!
haha now cannt chiong le..wan chiong aso so slow..

Lan zhong is coming again..
i duno feeling quite sian..
Looking at ppl play when i cant play my usual self...
The thing tt i once loved so much seem
to be moving further n further away from me
When will it return to me?
But will teh feeling still be the same when it return??
I'm doubting..starting to..

Still thking if i shld play ITE NYP..
But thking tt ah kok dun even dare 2 put me down...
Dun thk he'll put me down for the nxt 2 match..
Thur training..
Shld i train?? The more i see the competition...
The more i thk i'm nt worth 2 wear SP jersey..
I juz redundant..a nth in the team...
In Chong Ghee i regain my confident.coz @ least i felt needed
Everytime i step into SP court i felt my redundance...
I was nt needed at all..
A beginner to be specific according 2 ah kok...
When he saw i can shoot he was like so shock..
And thk tt day is juz my luck..
I proved him i can..but my leg pull me down once again..

Hope tml will be a better day..
No point thking..
At least i've not lost all my love...
Tt's the consoling thing..

Treasure when u can..Now i noe..
Life is ironic...full of lies