Ha shao hua ton at my hse and in the morning wake up by songs
ha tis tym round nt HP vibration liao..wahaha
Den wake up wash up n we're prepare..
Jue dui super star...yaya my fave...

Both of us watch the show wahah..
n derrick sang so well.i love his fast song la...reali pro man :) whaha
Den eh jun yang aso sing very nice..
he gt a super nice voice la :)
But but i dun like n super irritated is Jason gt in..
super piss la..chicken mcnugget....

aft tt go shaohua hse prepare take thing go work..
mit sze hui at queensway take clothes mafan her le.
ha den in the end we're late 4 work...coz cant find the place wahha
idiot la.changing tt tym gt scolding from boss...
den go in coz nv go debrief den gt shoot..
tt manager kip ask me Qn la..den i duno..idiot la...

Den i team up wif zhu lo..we 2 settle 3 table..
super busy la run here n dere..
but its fun though its tired...
At the end my leg hurts la...den aft tt Sh fren gt my num.
.so shy la.. *^-^*

Haha in the end me shaohua n zhu wenta eat diner ..
Ate bee hoon lo...so ncie..haha den me n shao hua went hm..
both of us so tired la..a while lata den we slp le...
wahah wif music again...haha

Quote of the day : It's really painful to say goodbye to someone else
that you don't want to let go;
but it's even more painful to ask someone to stay
if you can never make the relationship work out the way it should be.

It is completly true..coz when 2 ppl get tgt..
Its the 2 ppl prob..dey r an item seen as an entity...
Sumtym life r juz like tt...thing cant b prefect...
u cant get everything...in the way u wan...

OF coz its painful...to say gdbye....
Esp when u duwan tt person to go...
Howeva..lettiogn the person is the best happiness u can gif..
juz as a song say..diu ni zui hou de teng ai shi shou fang kai...
Its certainly true...u have to bear wif teh pain to let the person go..
of coz dere is pain..it seem like tearing u into peices..

Howeva is the relationship cant work..
its of no use to kip it...
in a r/s both muz make effort to maintain..
dere is no duno how to..juz whether u wan or duwan to maintain..

If u cant maintain the r/s wat for stay on...
it will jzu bring misery...coz more conflict cum up n stuff n..
tis will juz hurt each other more..
the hurt cut deep in til it can be heal..the wound heals no more...
Why wait til tis happen..stop b4 it hurts further....

Du get into a r/s if u noe u cant gif the person happiness...
coz to get tgt dere shld be happiness..n 4eva happiness...
no pt holding on when the other duwan..
Therefore if the person wan to leave..dun make the person stay..
juz b quiet n let the person leave...it may be for the gd o u both...

IF aft tryg n dere cant be of any help to improve situation..
den let go..be selfish...be happy....n let the one u love happy..
IF u cant love dun love...
if u say u can love den show tt u love..not juz words..
however through actions..tis is more impt.

Hmm today is Sp trg day...
but my stupid knee injured n i cant trg...
hoep today trg will have a bit more ppl...
wenta sp trg den at least got a few more ppl 12?
yupz at least got 12..
too bad i cant train if nt got 13 le :(
actuali wan go track de in teh end nt much ppl nv go..
nxt trg i sure wan go track..i wan run....

den start trg le lo..den airen n jiamin dey all all came lo...
den in teh end dey play 5 on 5..
i aso wan play :(

After tt we wenta clementi eat.n i ask Meinu help me buy
but coz is she buy thk gt xtra chilli..
Im so sad la..i eat til v slow n my lip all red...
n im like cryin n sweating la.wahah
aft tt go mit shao hua..n super funi..
i tot she quarrel wif huizhi la.hai wo blur la...tot y u 2 quarrel..
wahhaa den in teh end clear the doubt lo..

In the end shao hua come my hse ton..
so long she nv come my hse ton le la..
or ratehr so long ppl nv come my hse ton le..
thk my mum still dun allow if nt ask alot of ppl cum liao ...
proud of my greeny rm :) whaha

Quote of the day: "Every step I took
since the moment I could walk was a step towards finding you."

ACtuali to ppl wif goal and aim..
each step u take will of coz be toward ur goal n aim...
Since young u learn to walk...

I believe once u found sumone u reali love..
u'll juz gif ur everything...n of coz u din realised..
everything u do is juz for tt one person...
unknowingly u will do everythign juz 4 t person...

Hence of coz it will include the step u take..
Each step u take u take in2 consideratn the person's feeling..
take in consideration the person's sensitivity
take in consideration the person's thinking and attitute...

Every step u take is for the person..
n is towards the person...finding the person..
coz the person is juz the person u wan, u love, u nid..

Is tis love..i guess so ba :)
maybe tis is wat ppl call love
Howeva is it too surface?? n it din went deep..
Hu noe oni u urself noe the truth..
dun deny teh truth rather accept it...

Hmm today i wake up le..
den i wenta watch mr n mrs smith vcd...
waha teh story no bad sia..
.@ ist i was thking wats nice abt it..
aft realised..and it was v sweet :)

den i decided to pack my room...
haha den im so proud of myself la...
i finish my corner of my 5566..haha
tts teh ist thing i pack..den i pack my notes lo..
aft test le tym to prepare my notes for exam le..
but in the end i din pack much..
coz ive to rush down to hke le...
took train n my head duno y abit pain thk i falling sick...
but dun thk so lei..hmm..wondering...

den reach hke den we play ball el lo :) wahaha
den the guy so tall la..im so sad...
din reali get rebound..n duno y my 3 pt lost le :(
den rest rest n play play...qte fun..
den haha i gt a new meimei..jiamin...
or rather didi??wahaha gd
@ least can control 1 more dun smoke so much..

Hai den in the end i injured la...
ketek one fake i aso duno y i will injured...
my knee twisted and its so pain la..
reali pain til cant even touch it...
it have been long since i felt the pain...
yes truely its painful inside out...

den went home wif huizhi n shaohua on cab...
my knee duno consider serious or not..i aso duno..
jope its nth..n ive to stop training once again..bored...
thk if tml not pain den i'll train ba :)

Quote of the day : Just a thought:
What would you do if the only person
who could make you stop crying is the person who makes you cry?

In life there is surely a few impt ppl..
that u wld care for u wld wan attention for...
however, u wun be able to get attenton from the person u wan most...
life is juz so unfair isnt it :)

if the person hu can make u smile makes u cry..
tis show tt the person is impt in ur life...
and of coz u cry coz u care..
u smile coz u noe tt person care...
ppl are juz so selfish...u cry to get attention?
but tear arent tt ting hua...
dey wun stop when u ask dem to..
dey wun dry when u dry dem again n again...

but sumtym ur juz stubborn...
even though u noe tt person will make u cry...
u juz wan contiune coz u noe..tt person will make u smile too...
u're juz looking forward to teh moment of smile n luffter...
and forget all the tear n sorrow..

haha ppl r juz like tt...thk back..
arent u like tis too...

Haha..was so so tired..but yet i wake up @ 9am
prepare to go malaysia....
ha den me and wilson the earliest lo..
den we go romantic la walk all the way to the end...
den aft tt dennis, cheong n jiao came lo..
follow by amy and jojo n tall de...
den we proceed to the s'pore custom le...

Aft we went through teh Malaysia custom...
was so cool la im in johor...wahaha
den we went to a place city duno wat to shop...
den we buy alot of clothes la..
i buy 3 clothes oni one is for me...
the other 2 for oters..hope dey will like it..
i aso duno..i thk qte nice lehz...
wanted to help a fren get a sleeveless but dun have :(

den we wenta eat lunch dey're so hungry la..
actuali the clothes dere not bad la...
den i saw a addidas slipper damn nice la..
im so in love la..if i got money i sure buy...
den u noe wat wats most angry is...
i say my green nike shoe at malaysia $ 119
which is Sing sollar 50 smt onli la..argh..maybe no size..
console myself yupz surely no size de...
den i saw audrey la..at malaysia aso can see her...
wahaha duno how..so got fate man :)

den we took a cab go holiday plaza i thk...
a place whr alot of vcd wahaha
den me and bro go walk den we saw a poster shop....
den we wenta buy poster..we saw a ahshin poster..
we immediately buy it for jojo haha our sista's fave la...
den i buy my fave 5566 of coz..sun xie zhi so handsome la...
den bro buy a magnet haha for memory sake huh..
till now i still cant recall wats the movie la..wahah
den i wanted to buy food but in the end nv la..im stupid la shld have...

Lastly we went to sentosa..den go open store a supremarket...
actuali wanted to buy pad la..waha so cheap la dere...
cheaper den singapore wahaha but i shy...
in the end brought tissue a very special one de..
wanted to gif ppl..hope tt person will love it...
coz very difficult to find tt thing de..haha

den i was damn irritated i wanted to find a toilet and
i walk up and down duno how mani tym la..
so pissed off all the sales person say different thing la...
in the end we finali found it..
and my other fren sit down play card wahah...
den i was like wilson consultant...2 brain work beta..
but in the end he nv win la but nvm..nv lose aso :)

Den we walk to the place whr we wanted to eat seafood..
im looking forward la..so excited..wahaha
den i buy pong pia :) wahhaa so hapi..
den we order alot of thign la...
got hei po,chili and pepper crab,kangkong,stringray,tofu,orh lua
den we eat eat eat..chilli crab is nice la..wahaha
so full la..wahaha..den we go buy kueh eat...
i ate a greeny kueh..very nice lei..but i duno wat is it...
aft tt we walk to another shopping center..got cold storage de...
den i buy a very cute 7-up :) so cute la...
den we went home le..so full of fun but tired aso...

Go home and slp n dun thk abt anything..
have a gd nite slp..very long nv slp well le :) yay!

Quote of the day : When you love someone,
draw a circle around their name instead of a heart
because hearts can be broken but circles never end.

A circle is nv ending...there will be no end...
the love will kip circling ard...
and its true..hearts are frigile.it can be easily broken...
howver even through circle nv end..
but if the person tt is being circlar want it to end its still the same...
duno..maybe to me now..nth is nv end...nth is even lasting...
sumday sumtym it will end..its juz a matter of tym...

hence dra a circle at least there is hope tt it will nv end...
heart will get broken esp when promises r broken..

Hai..expected..coz im too tired..
My brain can function well and my paper pronounced dead...
Sure die and aft tt i came out of teh exam room...
i complain to jin hui abt it...
and i din noe all teh while when i was complaining
my statistic teacher is jzu behind me listening...
he din even ask me how was the paper..
thk he heard it all la..die la...

den hai..as usual..
swensen meal canceled.....sure de la.actuali i expect it le...nvm...
so in the end mit shao hua den we go hke..
den i went to eat the dry ban mian :) so ncice..
so long nv eat le la..haha
den we went ova to hke...no bball...
nvm i slp on the table lo..was reali v tired til eyes can close..

den went to sze min hse see dog...
it was so cute..and i play wif it lo ...
waaha den went down to play bball lo..
play til qte hapi la..was act qte shuang..duno y wahah
den play til qte late lo...in the end i played the last match...
den play wif teh last grp..saw a cute guy...
den as i defence him..he reali look cute :) waahaha
shao hua aso say qte cute wahah...dun thk will c him again ba..
i like fa hua chi la..wahaha.juz looking ma..
and airen dun jealous wor..wo xin li shi you ni de :)
went home was so tired...fall aslp str8
so excited tml gg malaysia :) yay!

dun wan to thk abt anything..i juz wan to enjoy...

Quote of the day: You'll know that you miss someone very much
when everytime you think of that person,
your heart breaks into pieces
and just a quick "Hello" from that person
can bring the broken pieces back...

Is tis true...i can deny..there will sure be a person...
At tym u'll miss so much...
everythign u're doing u thk of the person..
u wonder wat is tt person doing....
u wonder whr is tt person....
u wonder did tt person miss u...

And tt person can make u cry even wif juz one action..
even wif juz one sms or word...
Ur heart juz break wheneva tt person is not ard..
ur hrt break from teh thing tt person did..
ur heart break from wat tt person say...
ur heart breaks when u dun feel tt tt person shows is being said...

However tt person juz can make u smile...
juz a sms or a word or a look...
will juz brighten ur day up...
are u thking abt sumeone when u're reading tis...
did tt sumeone run through ur mind when u're reading..
if tt person does..den tt person is the person tt can make u smile...
as well as hurt u the most...
coz tt person means too much i thk....

i believe in ur life u sure will have a impt person in ur mind..
at a point of tym...at tt very moment...

But thk back y do tt person mean so much..
sumting to ponder abt...

Hmm the day ofmy exam..
hai..hell is juz in front of me..
istly is my Financial Market paper...
I went in to do..i regret..
coz my teacher like giving me ans la....

den i din reali study totally wat he gif me..hai..
my 100 marks gone... :(
nvm nxt is my econs paper..
hmm its seem ok ba..yupz manageable...

After tt went to eat den went compass point mit ahbun...
and im waiting for huizhi to cum coz ..
my textbook wf her la...
in teh end i din study much...coz i went to skcc..
to play my fave bball :) yay!
end up rain lo we play cards dere..haha stupid lehz..
den play in the in door side..lucky nv got trash...
but we still lost la..ha n my 3 pt sux la...
din get in im so sad :( nvm i'll train...
N im so tired...

Went home study til 1 smt la...
and i go slp coz reali cant take it le..
eyes closing anytym la...
And true enuff i fall aslp immediately..wahaha

Quote of the day : Two tear drops were floating down the river.
One teardrop said to the other,
"I'm the teardrop of a girl who loved a man and lost him.
Who are you?"... " I'm the teardrop of the man who regret letting a girl go..."

Ha.is tis situation familiar? in life...
you always cant get things the way u wan...
u nid to thk abt consequences and lots more thing....
In life there is always regrets....
but sumtym the regret is sumtym tt cant be escaped from...
coz u have to do tt w/o ur heart's and mind's consent

U cry coz u care..tear dried up oen day...
u may not wan to lose tt person..but
situation force u to do so...u have no choice...
u cant choose even it seem tt u can...
no one is prefect neither is thing..nth is perfect too..
it is always not the way u wan...
life is not so sweet...

Can u turn back tym aft u regret??
I thk the person tt is hurt wun coz
in the ist place u choose to let go..
But will dere be a second chance??
can it remain juz teh way it is..can god be more graceful..
and gime more tym...

Sumtym situation juz force thing to be the nasty way u hate..

study study study...
all i wan ..all i do is study...
and of coz not forgeting my love...basketball...
Im attached...i attached to basketball

Quote of the day: Remember that the best relationship is when
your love for each other is greater than your need for each other

Ask urself..in ur life how mani relationship have u been through
can u rank dem...
to me they are equally best and unforgettable..

Nid the person..but does ur nid contain love??
Or is it u juz nid tt person to be ard?
or u juz nid tt person to love u...
or u juz nid tt person to let u feel special...
or u juz nid tt person to be by ur side..
or u juz nid tt person for the sake of having a person...
It so scary if u duno wats is needed...
if its purely nid den there isnt true love....

if u love the person u simply dun nid anything
but tt person to be by ur side...
the pressence juz make u smilex...

let the love grow and be over ur nid..
love sum1 by not asking anithnig in return...
when the person is happy u will simply be...
most imptly is the person tt smile not u...

Hmm..haha today went to sch AT 1PM..
den after sch go library study...
den wenta eat KFC..so full la...
almost fell aslp..eat too much le..ha..
btu so long nv eat KFC le la..was v hapi to eat it..
wahah..den aft tt prepare 4 trg lo..

BUt not much ppl come..
was act very disappointed la...like so little ppl...
im sick n tired of kip begging ppl to cum to trg la..
tot it shld be dem taking intiative 2 cum...
I hope i will c a change..i duwan to leave SP wif regrets...

Quotes of the day: Just because someone doesn't love you
the way you want him or her to,
doesn't mean they don't love you with all he or she have.

True..everyone is selfish..
everyone has expectation...
Everyone wan the best for demself..

However nth is prefect...
u wun always get wat u wan...
ha juz liek me..i got a lot of clothes tt i like..
but when i wait awhile its gone..
n no more restock....
i cant have money and clothes at the same tym..
wahaha..im tokign rubbish man..

But everyone have different way of showing affection...
everyone has different way of showing care...
so of course different way of showing love...
If u love tt person..
look at teh person in a different angle...
and try accepting tt person teh way the person show love...
If the person is wif u..of coz the person love u..

If u love the person u wun wun care abt the person..
U wun attitute or gif cold shoulder to the person
U will wan to gif teh ebst to the person..
maybe u cant feel teh person love in tis way..or rather the way u wan..
but feel the person love otherwise...
Trust ur feeling...u will noe..n nv doubt a person tt say i love u...
coz it take lots of courage to say i love u..
if the person kip on saying i love u..
then tt person dun mean it coz tt words cum 2 easily.....
say i love u onli when u mean it..

Loving sumone is loving tt person everything..
hence learn to feel their love..
it hurts when u tell teh person tt reali love u tt u cant feel the person's love..
it reali hurts...plz be mindful of others feeling..

Today went to sch..almost cant wake up..
duno y so tired thk coz everyday play bball..
but shiock la..coz play 2 hrs of bball can reali wake me up...
den i'll have the jing sheng to study..
my exam cuming la..so damn damn stress up...
hey im jasmine lee shu fen..thos tt used to love exam...
y am i like tis now??no confidence in study now?
den went skcc play bball wif zhi, jin hui and guan yue de ppl :)
after tt tailiang n yun yun came to join us to play aso...
ha but skcc got smt on so in the end we share cab go doen punggol cc play...
walao den got suan by cute guy la..
coz at least he ask me go punggol ma but coz got fren at skcc so nv go..
in the end go back play say by him la...

Play at puggol..twisted my knee..hope its nth..
but the shape looks weird...nvm thk it shld be ok de :)
Den say tailiang n cute boy play..wa..both like jump so high la..
den aft tt went to drink water...den hai...
jh arz..can u be more xiao xin...sit aso sit properly k...
so out or move ur leg nxt tym c ard ist and move slowly...
hot aso wun so pain ma..ok...

Quotes of the day: There are some things that we never want to let go of...
people we never want to leave behind;
but keep in mind that letting go is not the end of the world,
but rather it is the beginning of a new life.

Ha in life you mit alot of people...
U'll mit a lot of tings..gg through a lot too...
I's jzu how to take it..of coz..sumtym...
U juz can't put down some things..
coz everything seem to be revolving ard u..
As for ppl of coz we would not wan to leave anyone behind...
howeevr sumtym is hard to mit everyone's expectation...
Coz we're humans too..there will be a pt of tym when we're tired...

ANd i certainly agree that letting go is not the end..
but rather a new beginning...
Coz as u learn to let go it's ur own life tt ur leading..
u live for urself and not for anione hence of coz it's not the end...
now i belief the 21 days thing...
IT says..21 days if u kip doing a thing....
after tt it would become a habit and u'll get use to it....

There will be a pt whr u'll get tired...
And letting go of coz will make u happier...
live happier.coz we 'll be happer alone isnt it...

Today actual shld be my and amy's anni..
btu she nv come sch..so swensen no more..
actuali mit ahbun n angela wanted to go eat
but in the end eat in food court6..haha
Den the most impt thing i forgot..
im suppose to get my FM exam tips from my FM teacher...
and i 4gt my appointment..die..have to thk of excuses..
which is wat im most poor at...at lieing...saded...

Den afetr tt went HKE mit my ahmei...
play bball wif dem...btu nt very shuang..
coz like i din reali run..and thk im tired...
after tt still went punggol cc..mit laymeng dey all..
coz laymeng jio us go play bball ma...
den we take teh stupdi bus from HKE..it was damn long...
but i fall aslp on bus..was so shuang..
haha den wake up jing sheng abit..
but thk i gastric..so sad a..was trying to cheng...
but cheng til i cant take it i go home..was reali pain...
den ps dem ..went home early..
now still a bit pain ..die le..hope nth will happen...
and today is anotehr tired day...
thk i will juz fall aslp lieing on my bed...
But stilli ahve to finish study ist..sianed..
haha gd bye to my com..hello to my bed...
I love u so much my cosy little bed..
cant u feel my love for u...u shld..
wif me hugging u...and gifing u warm...
can u feel my love...please show me sum love...
I love u my cosy little bed,,oh my cosy little bed..

Quotes of the day: If someone comes into your life and
becomes a part of you but for some reasons
he couldn't stay, don't cry too much...
just be glad that your paths crossed and
somehow he made you happy even for a while.

ACtuali qte true huh...coz in life u mit so mani ppl...
if tt person walk into ur life...its fate tt brought u 2 tgt?
Actuali so mani ppl in S'pore have u wonder y u will mit tis person...
Have it been destinu n fate tt u've to go through all tis?

Sumtym u juz cry so much...cry so hard..
that tears dried up...n it jzu cant fall again...
but it will fall if it came back again.isnt it?
When ppl leave y dun we take it as part of the life..
Maybe every1 shld learn to take thing easy...
Yes..be glad..at least there is memories..
sumetym there may even be no beginning...
hence the begins is a blessing...
it may stop but at least eh life os u 2 din crossed b4..

The happiness may be for awhile..but when its of teh person u love..
the happiness seems 4eva is nt it?
Hence if the person choose to leave? juz let tt person leave?
its no pt holding on...
No lover but frenz? i believe its possible.
its juz tt do u wan to face it...

Went to study..skcc..
den tok cok dere la..den tt juli come aso nv say..
Den slap the table hai me got a shock..
Den after tt she went national trg..
den me jin hui huizhi went to 108 play bball...
play wif yipeng desmond and desmond's bro...
Den me n huizhi play 2 on2 wif 2 guys..
tt 2 guy kip on qie la..if nt thk maybe we'll win..wahaha
Thk i thk too much me n zhi so short while dey so tall..
Den took bus home lo..was damn tired la...

Quotes of the day: You will know when you really love someone
when you want him to be happy
even if their happiness means you are not a part of it.

Duno will my brain works wahaha...
Actuali true..when everythign u thk of tt person ist..
u're in love wif tt person...
And true of coz u juz wan to see the one u love to be happy...
MAybe u wun be part of their happiness..
however u'll thk tt everything is juz worth it..
That person deserve the best....
U may suffer but that person smile can juz makes u melt..
and tt all suffering will juz disappear 4 tt very moment...

However i duno..sumtym humans are selfish....
u juz noe ur not part of the person's happiness
but u juz kip telling urself its ok its ok but actual fact it isnt ok...
hu will like to suffer..hu wun wan to be loved back..
true enuff huh...u juz wan to share the person's happiness..
no matter how..not matter wat..u juz hope u can be part of it..
But taken everything...all the sufers..
all the the person deserve it..and all the person can melt u..
juz show how much u're in love wif tt person....

Loving sumone is hard..tts why tis is well-said...

Ha.today no work again..once again we are being bluff...
nvm at least tis tym nv ask us go down den go home la..
If not i sure very angry de la..*sigh*
Den went to study n in teh end ended up play bball..
ha den play wif my fren.so fun la..But tired aso..
den play wif 2 guy..me n huizhi vs dem...
den very irritating..
i feel like kiling tt person...
Istly trip me..den push me..den use shoulder hit me...
den i layup push me..den i very bu shaung le..
and he say sori in a very damn not sincere way...
Feel like juz pushing him n ask him wat he wan la..
but nv haha i dun dare...juz feel unhapi..

Ha thk exam cuming i damn stress la..
kip on study den thur gt presentation..
hope everything will go smoothly...oh well!!!

Den hor today thk i wear ger ger..
den nowaday see ppl kip on apparch ppl...den a ger appoarch me..
say wat model agency...but i thk fake de la..
ha wif my height plaz la..but at least is a compliment..
she say i very pretty..so hapi..fly up le la..
ahha but i neo myself la..ok..is juz a white lie waha

Now is time for quote:
Quote of the day :There would come a time when
we have to stop loving someone not because
that person started hating us but because
we found out that they'd be happier if we let them go...

Actuali qte true but however...
You stop loving the sumone when
the other person hate us mite nt be true..
Coz to me..u may stop loving coz tt person stop loving too..
N coz tt person stop loving u convince urself tt uve stop loving..
yet in actual fact u havnt stop...
u noe u have not stop loving...but wats the pt rty...
do i tok sense??wahaha
actuali is qte true..when u love tt sumore.
of coz all u hope for is the best of tt person...
u suffer nvm? hmm..but sumtym maybe thk 4 urself too??
be selfish at tym..maybe u shld be..
and if leaving tt person will make the person hapi y not..
if remaining as very gd fren is a gd thing y not rty...
as frens sumtym its much beta den couple?
Actuali tis is true to sum extend..
thk abt it urself ba :)

Came across ah bun's blog..and the quote was so meaning...
decided to explain her quote one by one by how i feel everyday..
so fun..everyday i'll sure blog coz of tis...
Start by today :

It's so funny how we set qualifications for the right person to love,
while at the back of our minds we know that
the person we truly love will always be an exception.

Haha how true man..we always set a standard...
however the person we choose nv mit our standard...
How ironic...Life juz like tt...
The more u wan the thing to be the way u wan....
The more that wun happen?? haha
Haha so i decided not to set any standard....
AT least when i f0und tt sumore i can juz say..
Ya..that's my standard wahaha...
And may my stardard is high or low..its still wat i choose :)

*sigh* Im qte affected....


I blog for wat i wan to say..
And not becoz of hu i wan it to be read by.

*tired* reali *tired*..
BUt yet haveta study..hai...ytd study til 1am la...
sianed..and im so happi ISP canceled...
I lvoe my teacher man..so understanding..
I thk everyone is so understanding to me :) yay...

And do i have a plz attitute me face??
Y ytd so mani ppl attitute me :( so saded la...
duno felt so weird...am i reali so gd to attitute to?
hai..sianed la..boring..hai...
Life life life....play hard !!! yeah man ~~!!

Oh my! Oh my!
Haha exam coming la...
knew wat i lost oready..my motivation n determination....
Haha but act i thk its cuming bac..i haven lost it all act..

Muz reali jiayou..hope im able to cancel my monday isp clz..
Coz i nv do anything lei go aso no use la..
so might as well cancel den after holiday den go see him.
Plz plz plz....allow me to .....
*pray* *hope* haha May God Bless me !!

*nervous* *jing zhang*

Came back from the concert not long...
The concert was damn cool...
Den becoz it got serve beer...
den walao..idiot the person look at me...
U gt 18 meh?? wa...so saded la..
nvm i gt a young look..i shld be hapi la..always youthful..

ha den the zhou chuang xiong, ahdu n du de wei..
sing damn nice la..haha n teh food was so filling...
tot i would fall aslp but i din..

haha so hapi....hai..but exam cuming..
gota study hard le..sian...boring..
thk this week all i can do is study n study n study..
if nto the most aso go training n go work oni...
sian la..but if dun like tis cant score ba..
Was revising today n was so saded..sum thing i 4gt le..
fear sink in la...duno thk tis sem i too chicken le la.
cannt im cow ahgu..im strong..
yeah man !!

argh!!!! lost lost lost....
i lost it all....eh..actuali...
i duno wat ive lost..seriously...like a bendan hor?
I jzu felt sumting was not rty sumting was missing..
BUt yet i duno wat is lost..
Hmm...i lost myself in books??
die la..finding myself nerdy liao...
But its seem good..focusing on..
Study n bball n nth else more to think abt ba...
Kip myself busy wif work....
part time job, sch work, bball and everything....
like tis everynite i go home i will have a good nite slp :) whaha
yay! im so clever.... one happy ger..

hmm today slp till hapi...
Wake up do proj..haha
Thk im one sotong la..i tot is cheogn suppose to do..
In the end i'm suppose to do..
Luckily i gt instint...wake up see fone..

Den went to study..
den went to play bball...play halfway...
Rain start so irritating la..den trg cancel..
so boring..so huizhi mit me n jin hui den we went down skcc...
Saw laymeng sok kim tansy qihui n jac..
Wahaha...qi hui super funi la..
Cna luff wif her till sky drop...

Act b4 gg down skcc..pei huizhi go hougang ist..
she go hm take thing ma...
yupz..den we go find peifen ruiting n yuhuan ist..
coz dey playign at punggol cc ma..yupz...juz nice..
den realised yuhuan eat a lot chilli n peifen alot of vnigar...
Seriously la....

Den wa..today cute boy so attitute..
ha den in the end we quarrel..so stupid la...
Lucky he apologise...if not wun tok to him at all le...
but like so childish..attitute for like nth...
Duno feel like attitute aso...but thk both aso play play ba..
duno..dun care la...

And my meimei...haha dun so stress up n sad k...
Baobao cheer up ba.. *smilex*
Yupz everyone cheer up and set a goal..
yay!

hai..tis few days like very easily agitated..
WHy huh??thk my auntie gg visit me le ba..
Hai hate myself to be like tis..
i thk i not enuff slp..
SO grumpy la...n easily fired up...
Everythign seem so not right...

And ytd my boss call me to apologise...
And msn aso apologise...but aft tt a bit siao qi le la..
But actuali still qte angry...
So i was telling my boss nxt tym make sure i go u all are not out for lunch..

suddenly got a down feeling...
And was feeling like im so.....hmm duno...
Im like in my world....
Ytd saw my fren...alone on my way to sch...
i was thking....so long haven mit up..
so much have change...n tt i do miss dem....
The time at secondary sch...i duno shld i smile...
COz of bball i always miss the chance to mit up wif dem...
But my world now only revolve ard BBall and studies...
All i wan is bball..all i love is bball..i duwan to leave it...
And of coz provided it dun leave me..

And duno...maybe i shld be ard for everyone...
i duno..may i reali tt needed???
And tt i dun wish to see my fren sad..
but yet sumtym is not within my reach...
Sumtime i nid my space..i nid time to be in my world...
I got a feeling of gg isolation...
Duno..or maybe i shldnt?
Maybe i try too hard..that its too hard on me...

I nid attention too....But hu can gime...
hu dun like attention...but hu shld noe...
that u muz love urself b4 u say u love others...
hence..gif urself the attention ist...
duno...wahaha i like toking nonsense..rubbish....

haha..lost blur confused..no brain now wahha

So much prob so much thing...
Everyone seems to be feeling so down...
And i felt lyk im a counseller..
trying to cheer ppl up...

And im gonna get a new line of starhub la..
My fone bill so scared it will bomb tis month aso..
Trying so hard to save it but seems lyk i muz reply...
Not replying seems to be lyk leaving tt person 2 die...
Lucky got singtel and strhub online sms la..
If not sure die...
However work load has been so much...
Wanna spend sum tym 2 reply in clz aso difficult...

Exam is cuming...shld focus on it...
Dun thk so much abt other thing..
it goes the same to all of my frenz...
Jiayou and good luck for exam k...

And since im a defferred student...
I takign my last year exam soon...
And idiot put my yest date so close..
and 25th i got 2 paper..econs and financial market
Sian how can imanage..try my best ba..
*hai* looking thing at its sightest complexity..

Hot and colds..I dun lyk..
Can i juz have warm....
Im a simple ger leading a simple life...
Duwan complexity anymore...coz its squeezing my brain cells...
Ive a small brain..dun use it all..

Ha..was juz telling pts...
Nv hope, nth wil last, nth is being promised..
Coz by tellign urself all this...
At least if hope dun come true, Promises breaks and it nv last..
U will jzu tell urself, oh yes...
It justify wat u are thking...
at least its like u arent being thrown down from 20 storey..
the most u wil feel u have a fall..
Stand up and everythign will be fine!
However if hopes do come true, promises do remain and it does last..
U will count ur blessing and thk mayb ur lucky..

Shld i count myself lucky? however how shld i measure?
In wat sense? ha..i aso duno..

Shall remain unshaken!
Coz im strong....
Im young...shall juz focus on study...
ANd of coz work...
To earn more $ so as to study more...
I wan i wan..i wan more....
I nid i nid i nid more...
BUt seriously does anyone noe wat i wan wat i nid...

I doubt so..even me myself duno...
HU can noe me more than myself?
But do i reali noe the deep deep me?
No one will dare to say they have totally understand demself..

hai..stress up..
Sch..home...thking..
Everything in a go...

Ist tym i test i will shiver..I will heart beat beat so fast...
First tym nitemare abt it...
I have it enuff...
No one understand the stress im facing...
To score well..even as a derferred students w/o having to attend lesson..
no1 cres..no1 can..
calm me down...plz sum1..

Dun blame me for a nervous breakdown if i do..
dun gif me any pressure any stress anymore..
I juz wan to be happy..
leading a simple life.....

I dunwan...thk no more...
Juz simply live my life happily..is all i ask for..

u make me thk....
*sign*

NO feeling to study...
Dun feel lyk studying..
Duno y..thk coz....
Im staying @ home to study.n din feel the urgency...
So feel lyk gg mac..maybe smt will get in..
Too bad shaohua working :(..
But nvm in the went play bball at skcc...

Wahaha play til hapi man...
Was tired...n my knee hurts la..
BUt nvm at least im happy...
And im so hapi wif my 3 pts..but 2 pts can die...
Esp underbasket..thk i can go stab myself n die...
HA thk oni tt day..mayb coz i neo there will b rebound..
tts y i shoot wif no pressure ba..

Went home tot of study in the end tired..
Fell aslp...Headach.cant get thing inside aso..
Tml den study lo...so unlike me la..
Wats happening to me...hai...
Haha my motication n determinationis gone... :(
nvm i'll get it back...
the passion to study...hahaa

ha.ytd nite weta work at mariott hotel...
A event so unlike wat i used to do..
I went in den got change den start doing...

Im in charge of the tattoo side..
Ha got hair spray corner lo...
And i spray my hair green..So cool manz...
And i tatto abit aso...coz farris lo..
Say wat..do wat muz got Sei...

Ha den when people came cuming in...
Wow reali very busy...
All wan tattoo...den teh ppl very funi de lei..
Wahaha can help dem tatto til luff till tears manz...
Den got a few weird de..haha wan put teh tatto on chest..
Most ger wan it on their back..or in front at the side of their chest..
Actuali i thk its very attractive for gers to put it dere..
Den a few wan it on their neck ha weird rty!!
But overall its fun la...

Den in the end found out cant eat wif jinhui and lala..
Act coz lala workign at orchard aso ma..
so dey tot of mit le eat dinner....
but inteh end i cant make it den both of dem...
Candle lite dinner..muz thanz me manz...
gif u 2 chance lei..haha faster say thank you la..

Den the company got a teletym...
Damn funi la...Ist one sing not bad...
But came to a guy sing tong hua..
i almost fainted...wahaha but muz control cant luff...
Me and jerry was lyk saying he cant eveb follow the music..
But guang liang song qte hard to sing lo...
Den hor the last contestant most pro...
Sing opra...Got costume sumore....
Ha in end she won..so much effort of her la ^_^
den the MC of the day damn funi..kip on play ppl while playing games..
den the DJ irritatig de leh..kip on say my turtle very ugly..
den kip wan cut its head off...N ask me smoke sumore..
bendan him leh.ha debate wif me sumore....
On wat smoke to boost the economy of Singapore..bullshit la...
Ha in the end i got help from others..yaya! i win

In the i work til 1am lyk tis ba..
Lucky got car send me home :) waha
If ask me drive i sure accident ha...
was reali v tired....reach hm fall aslp le...
Ha so a eventful nite during the event

Love for you is just a game
the way i'm just another name keeping you in my memory
while i'm just part of your history life
For you is just the same
while mine's deep in misery
i only have myself to blame for
falling for you so deeply

*got it copy from else whr*
Find tis quote qte meaningful
And u all shldnt treat love as a game..
Coz it isnt..
in a game theres oni win or lose..
However in love..
hu is the winner hu is the loser?
Both of u shld be winner..
Since the other person have put u as a history in life...
Why try so hard n be in misery...
U muz be happy...
show that person ur happier or u can be happy..
Isnt it?

And of coz u oni have urself to blame to fall so deep..
BUt however...Love is uncontrollable...
U juz unknowly fall deep into it without u urself realising...
Love nid nt be shown..
different ppl have different way of showing love...
if u cant feel it...den u ought to ask or learn to...

Coz when 2 person is in love.
There is always unmeasurable love...
And nv doubt the other person..
If so..then is time to show assurance...
All ppl need assurance..so dun kip it...
Dun say u cant..coz everything...
is always whether u wan or duwan..
is not u can or cant...So put in effort...
Ur the other half will be touched to feel ur effort ...
If u chose not to assure, then dun blame others..
But urself..coz u choose to gif it up urself..
U shows u r putting no effort in the r/s..

:) wahaha i lyk love consultant :) yay!

Hmm suddenly....
I have a feeling that im nt clever @ all...
Or rather i was nv once clever b4...
I thk im stupid...in juz tis 2 example...
Others i nid nt list...

To the fact that ive been to sbc so mani time...
I 4gt abt the drain n i drop inside...
And i gt injured..
Now the injury is affecting my knee..
Hey and SP teammates thankz for teh concerned abt my knee...
And thanz *meinu* haixin..to change...
My bluey shoebag wif ur greeny shoebag..
Ur the best man :) wahaha...

Another all the while i tot i lost my mp3...
But teh fact is it is actuali in front of me the whole nite...
when i was looking for it andi din realised...
It is juz the same to life..
Sumtime thing r always in front but u juz din realised...
Why oni wanting to cherish when u din @ ist...
It wun be the same anymore...

But still .....
Hai..my jacket is lost....
The jacket is the last present that my coach gif it to me...
I love it so much la...but yet...
its gone....
Sumtym the thing u loved most is juz gone...
u will think abt it and cry ova it...
But when u cry too much ova it...
Tears wun roll down anymore coz it have becum dry..
Mayb the jacket is meant to be a memories and nv be back...
Even if its back..it wun be the same? maybe? yea? no?
But nvm at least i spent tym wif it..
waahha..but im thinking...
thk i'll die in clz la....i have no more jacket :(
No jacket how??i'll juz freeze to death...
and one more thing the jacket is so x la..
i dun thk i'll eva have such a x jacket animore lo ..
wahaha wat a stingy me !! wahaha

:( whr is my MP3 and and 1 jacket :(

Lost lost lost...everything lost..
Hai..my fave jacket sumore..
My coach gime as my birthday present de lei...
And my mp3.2nd 1 lost..
Argh a necessity now...argh no music no life...
I WANT A MP3...SHLD I GET THE GREEN MINI I-POD...
ARGH JUZ A SIMPLE MP3 I ASK FOR...
why does thing always get no whr when i thk its getting sumwhr..
when i thk im ok...im alrty...n tt even a mp3 i have no control..
And my JACKET ARGH!!!!
haiya..idiot..
wada la...

ARgh irritated la...
Wanted ask my jacket and mp3 whereabout...
No one ans my fone..
Argh...juz rem rushing out of clz..
Put my jacket in my test room...
Argh...suppose to be a happi day...
Then end up....duno la...

My fren dun sad sad le k...
yupx learn not to thk...
*smilex*

stress up...test test test...
3 weeks and my last yr exam..
Stupid chicken pox...
duno does it come in a gd tym or bad??
Lost smt gain smt..
IN the end still lost it all...

ha den u noe ist tym i so stress...
study till headach...
and tt i reach hm slp le..
still will dream of Financial managment notes...
All eth stuff ive studied...
and my heart beat damn fast...til i tot..
any moment i was going to die..

If i die will an1 care ..i wonder??
wahaha stupid...
i thk im reali too stress up..
too much thing on mind??
shld i juz throw it all..and juz stone...

Maybe i shld..I may be happier :)

Wahaha...so Funi...
Have a big big luff.....

Life...
what a big word...
Life u can end it wif a big luffer..
U can end it wif a big sorrow..
It is juz lyk a big illusion..
Did anyone realised...
I kip on use the word BIG...
Coz life is a big part or rather everything..
It is a word full of expectation, hoping, memories, dreams and aims..

So whats ur goal?
Set one today...N go for it..
Coz ive set mine ^_^