Hmm y is everyone saying im acting cute :(

Today trg was v simple..
and i dun thk i nid to scared le coz coach told me the shedule..
Physical will start soon but nt now...
haha den gt played by haixin n estascy 2day la haha...
so sad..haha but nvm..hope becca will come more..
juz simply love her pressence :)

And today nv join dem eat haha..so sad..
but was tired aso n our miting screwed up...
so sad thk our grp will failed :(

haha nvm trg duno wat to say..actuali was feeling a bit drained..
by all tose proj n stuff... n dun reali feel like gg trg liao..
drag myself to go n tell myself im looking forward haha..
but ok la..n im so sad :( im growing fatter
how how how??sad la..

haha..now no lesson yay!!
coz teacher go miting but my proj haha liek half way...
haha my cannt come out aso duno y...
hope it will come out soon...haha ...

yay! den gg to mit teacher submit another proj le haha draft oni :)
haha den went library print so mani ppl..
so in the end i printed my colour print oni lo :) haha

Am i too strong to be true...
Shld i be weak?

Y do i feel like im alone....
I wan go out but yet my mind ask me nt to...
i wan to play but yet my work make me not to...
i wan be strong but yet my weakness ask me nt to..

I noe i can....n i can...
when i noe i cant..i reai cant...
so in the end i choose to believe n thk tt it reali can...

GG out soon...was bored but yet wanna stay at hm do proj..
in the end make up my mind to go out...
Njoy ba..cow ahgu

haha this few days im so tired la...
close eyes can slp liao...
and wenta work early morning lo...so sian
haha but nvm at nite i slp well n sound haha...
But i have to worry abt proj once i wake up...
actuali ate irritating la haha..
btu nvm wat to do..one wk more n it will be all ova..

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO LALA

FROM DIPSY :)

Exam..test..proj...
tis is al i face....

WSNA, SAD , ISP, ECP, LAWS...
This is all i face...
Juz realised the due of all proj..its so close...
everything like so pack..
law law law..its a thing tt i duno... haha die die die

hmm..sori tis few days was busy..
hence i tend not to reply sms n stuff...
was reali busy..din even have tym 2 use hp..

and tts y use online sms..
haha u all dun jie yi k haha..budget...papa scold my hp bill...
and i treat everyone equali...
i duno..sumhow ppl feel tt dey r less impt coz i nv reply..
or rather coz i use online...

but all tt i can use online i will use..
and all gt equal treatment...coz tis few wk im reali tired...
n i gt a big circle of fren...hence i may nt b replying the same person...
it may be different ppl..and its coz its impt stuff ts y i reply...

so yupz...juz trying to tell anyone tts thks y i nv reply...
haha actuali qte lame arz..juz wan to xplain n be clear...

Slacking in clz..haha so bo liao...
lata gt FM test...hai duno can make it nt..
Hope i can..jasmine jiayou :) haha

yay! i can make it no matter wat..

juz rem wat my teacher say...
when u kip saying a person i stupid n stupid..
eventually the person will reali thk tt he or she is reali stupid..
so dun reali scodl a person stupid..
but play play say bendan..or stupid is ok la...
nv take it seriously when u scodl sumone stupid..
coz ur contributing to the person stupidity mentally.

Juz be confident..
everyone have low period....
when u thk u cant u cant when u thk u can u can..
so mite as well thk u can :) yupz..
certain pt u may feel down n lousy..
but dun let it remain..tml will be another day..
another u..... a brand new u... everything start again...
u may be lousy one day but rem it wld nt be 4eva...

Ytd played a frenly against ITE West...
although we won but i feel tt our stamina reali cannt la..
At ist go in hand pain til can la..
lucky still can but my defence i duno wat to say...
Play behind i duno wat to play...felt qte weird..
nvm i will ask coach let me train behind tml..
so i can get use to playing below.if nt i blur den die...

But over all Gd job man SP Team...
I love u all man..u all are the best...

Den aft tt be ref for boys team....so sad la..
i dun dare blow la..like blow wat aso gt scold..haha
lucky nv get scolded by SP Boys team...
haha sori ar..i duno hw to blow de...
no one ar..so i no choice....so stress...

* pray tt my wrist will recover *
- it is affecting my shooting -

Sad sad sad.. do i have to be controller??
Ist tym i play 5on5 i nv play forward b4...
feel like im in zhonghua..but duno y i dun thk im up to it..
I dun thk im calm enough...
I thk i will panick tml...if im controller again..
i duwan i dun like..i dun like the pressure of being a controller...
an d my wrist is injrued..its affectg my shooting...
now i cant shoot.hand aso muz warm up ist..argh!!!
so irritating hate it..

:( i wan play forward.... i wan my wrist to be ok..

Wenta study 1 lesson haha den go NP...
so boring la ahha den i get down 2 early la..
walk 1 bus stop to NP so hot ahha den find the atrium so diff la..
den eat cai fan...den walk 2 their 3 on3 court..so cool la..haha
den went bac SP haha so fun hor..

Den play bball wif a few guys den a boys team de cum...
haha den wa he damn fit la..he defence i can die haha..
but in the end me him bird n bun 1 team..haha lost to china ppl..
den trg le lo..2day trg v slack.duno y haha..

but poor me injured wrist v pain la...nv tape v pain..
den dismiss le go eat lo jiu reach hm le..
so tired la..haha n PTS hapi sweet 18th bday haha
My green lite..mit up la...so long nv mit le la..
ok haha...take care k :) n enjoy :)

Quote of the day : What If someone tells you this:
I don't believe in courtship. It's just a waste of time.
If I love the person, i'll tell her right away.
But for you I will make an exception...
just love me now and i'll court you forever...

Actuali have anyone wonder why is dere a countship?
haha is a countship dere coz u wan the people to show sincerity?
Or rather u wan tt person to nt take u 4 granted?
Or u thk tt its all waste of time?

Actuali to me all ger love courtship..
coz during the courtship all ger feel the special..
dey feel tt they're the best above everything...
but sumtime it has come to a point where ul understand each ting.
Dere nid no xtra words..u noe wat is on the mind of both of u..
when u all are in love, dere isnt a nid to say " i love u "

If a person is willing to count u 4eva..
y not..u'll feel special 4eva..
and in a r/s tts wat nided..
to feel special n tt ur above any otehr ppl...
but all tis nv last? oni will be during honey mood??
Nth last..haha but treasure wats b4 u ist @ least it will bring sweet memories..

when will i reali have a person tt will spent through all month as honeymood..
When will i mit mine? looking 4ward in having 1.haha

My little little toe..oh mine!!..
please heal...n dun swell animore...whaha
ytd trg la..but no coach..felt abit lost...
coz liek no physical..haha den haixin my meinu help me season my shoe...

i hope my shoes now soft liao whaha
den im sososo tired.....
im gona go home on today n thur to slp wahha...
fri trg again actuali i was looking forward to it..

my tireness is tempting me not 2 go sch wahaha...
its all bcoz of the tue class....8am la..make me tired.....
was thking how to rest alot n alot...i wan slp..i wan rest...

im tired..real tired...

Taking back SAD result soon scared...
im now at home waiting to go out..
yupz..feeling abit of depress duno....

read sumthing n feel tt im indeed nt nided..
tt person have occupies every inch of ur hrt i guess..yupz..

i nv tell anyone anything...
my deepest feeling, thking no one noes...
except the one tt i can drop tears in front of...

Thanks for being dere...
i appreciated it... :)

i was wrong when i tot i can take it all..
i was wrong when i tot i can juz dun care..
i was wrong when i tot ic an have peace...
i was wrong when i tot my tears are dried..
i was wrong when i tot i was numb..
i was wrong asolutely wrong..

Once again i drop tears...
it have been so long...coz i tot my tears are dried..
i tot i will nv tears again...
but once again i tear in front of u...
i duno when when i look at u i juz cant kip the tears..
i try to control n i try hard..n i did..i did control..
til u came by to ask me wat happen tears juz drop...
n i realised true enuff i oni drop tear in front of u...
i duno y i can juz cry w/o thking in front of u..
but to other i wun coz i noe im strong..
but to u i felt weak..soso weak...

i duno..juz felt disappointed...n im tired..
i duno..i felt im nt significant @ all..wif or w/o me ul live well...
so hu is the tts nt nided in hus life?
i may show tt i dun care but coz im jzu liek tis...
i kip to myself...coz i dun like to force ppl 2 go out or tok to me either...
i duno..mayb its the me tt ul cant stand..
ive nth to say..but was so so sad..
thking abt all the thing..thking tt is our r/s so weak tt i cant maintain...
i was affected by ul the attitute n dun care i duno...
n maybe my saddness ul dun even care..btu im strong..i wun fall...

thk back all the thing..tt holiday i'll go hke..n sch tym ul will cum serangoon...
n we'll ton at ppl hse have fun...n play ball tgt...
n we study tgt..brk we will mit in sch..go trg tgt...
all the memories come back...its hurt i tell u it reali does hurt...
n aso thk abt other thing...tt the ting we xchange have no memories 4 u..
tt u can say gif jiu gif..ive no rty to interfere coz aft changing its ur stuff..
but i'll nv lend teh thing u gif me nor gif it away..
coz to me even the tings matter....i duno..mayb im juz bad @ expressing..

I duno whr do i stand..but i felt im nth..i duno tts juz my feeling...
im felt so nth tt i cry..thking abt the past..thking wat ul said...
once again i felt tears had dried up once again.....

The quotes will be right back..
please wait patiently...
sorry for any inconvenience cause :)

SIck sick Sick.....argh!!!

dun wanna care dun wanna thk...

Juz wan peace....let me rest please....

haha aft we came back from candy's chalet..
we fall on bed n fall aslp liao lo.haha so tired la..
btu atq early jiu wake up liao..ard 1 smt la..so sad...
coz shao hua dey all wake up den i wake up liao lo...
hmm ..den we go down mac eat lo..standard haha..
shaohua jiu prepare for ehr test lo..jiayou wor meimei :) wahaha

aft tt i rush hm take thing lo..coz i miting haixin early in sch...
we gt sp trg today wif a coach..im so hapi :)
den i reach dere qte early den wait for my meinu la...
in the end she help me take all my stuff haha i felt so xin fu

ok trg started liao..so jing zhang..gui cai is our coach..
den we do warm-up n abit of strategy..so scary la..
den im suppose to learn behind aso..n i duno la :(
den in ethe end play 5 on 4 so shuang la..ist tym play til so hapi...
n our team no tall de lo..but we can man :) yupz...
nteh last match i injured my ankle so sad la..qte pain xia..
but ok la at elast can walk den go eat again..my tom yam ha...
aft tt go talk talk awhile den go home le lo...im so so so tired la..

Hmm today is my SAD prac test..
and reali as the module name name it..haha sad la...
oni last Question comfirm all right..haha den others...
abit abit of mark here and there ba :)
hope at least can get 60 smt? hoe so ba...

den aft tt went home lo.coz mit mama n papa go out..
reach hm den when i was on my ned thking wat 2 write for candy...
i fall aslp la..n nv cover blanket sumore...
den my mama wake me up den i change liao go out lo..
we went to nanyang arts school arz.haha wenta the gallery..
coz my cousin designer den gt a gallery ma..
so we go dere see see..den buy 2 t-Shirt lo...

at tt we went to bugis village dere eat lo..
haha wat qte a lot of thing..n the food dere qte nice leh :)
den go home le lo coz i rushing home ma...
den mit shao hua at my hse dere den we take bus go aloha..
reach downtown eat den realised is aloho loyang la...
den we walk all the way in lo wif jiayi and shao hua...
reach le of coz wish candy hapi bday la..
den in the end end up i still eat haha..

den play mamjong wif candy's fren...den saw a guy qte cute..
haha aft tt then realised he is wiliam la..
but the william i see in nyp dun look like tt leh...
whaha funi xia..but nvm he realli qte gd looking :) eye candy.. wahaha
den we all shout shout when the result of superstar is being announced
so funi la n yes! derrick n jun yang went in...im so hapi..
jason finali out..duno lei juz dun like him whaha..like i noe him hor..

den i went in pei shao hua study while i tok on fone lo...
aft tt ahbird n bin came in den we 2on 2 fight..
funi sia n shaohua kip wantg 2 save me but gt pull out of the door whaha..
we very stupid la..ahbin play till sweat arz..haha c how ji lie..haha
finlai we end up playing cards..quiet down liao..
btu my ah mei no xin qing study le la..wahhaa
den we slp lo...so tiring la..a tired day..

Quote of the day: A heart truly in love never loses hope but always believes.

When u're in love u believe in everything...
u believe wat the person say is true...
u beleive wat the person do is from the heart...
even if the person disappointed u again n again..
u juz hold on coz u duwan to lsoe hope..
u believe tt person truely love u and tt the person will come back..

Hey all tis are naive thking...
if the person love u...
the person wun go back on their words...
the person wun show tt actuali the thing or word is nt fr the person;s hrt..
the person wun disappoint u again n again...
juz as i say promises are meant to be broken..
why believe in such thing..hey wake up la ppl..
dun be naive..there is no such thing..

that y i have.. a phrase tt follows me...
dun thk much nv hope for evalasting..
coz nth last..absolutely nth last..hence be pestmistic abt it...
if it reali do last den count ur blessing..ur lucky..
and u shld be happi..

u should noe u shouldnt harbour hope...
wats is ur will be urs...n the hope the person is giving u is jzu smt u can nv capture..
the more u hope the harder u fall..thats wat i learn..

Hmm went to sch for tutorial..
im so pro slp 4 2 hrs oni...den took cab to sch...
den i still can ton teh lesson n crap wif my teacher..wahaha..
den aft tt my fren teach me abti abt the thru prac test...
in the end im too tired n i juz send the code to my mail..
den aft tt jiu go hm le..and bomb on my bed aslp..

Den i wake up le jiu wenta play bball lo...
wenta 188 to play ball...den so shuanh ha.
but injured my little finger.im so sad...
damn pain la..den tear juz drop down lo...

haha im so tired la..went home...
go through the prac notes abit...den try to understand..
go slp den all ready to mit my hell tml for prac test wahaha..

Quote of the day : Don't be too good, i will miss you.
don't be too caring, i might like you.
Don't be too sweet, I might fall.
It's hard for me to love you when you won't love me after all...

When sumone is gd to u obviously u'll miss the person's gd...
when sumone is caring towards u of coz u'l feel special n feeling may develop..
When sumone is sweet its attract ppl..and ppl fell in love is way..

thk back u miss teh person or the person's gd?
u like the person or u like the person to b caring towards u?
u fall for the person or u fall for the person's sweetness?
Sumthing i believe u duno too..ur uncertain too...
coz ppl are selfish they choose to be uncertain...
but howeva hu duwan to be special hu duwan to be loves?
of coz u hope to have sum1 to care for u...
have sweetness all ova u..and of coz love ova u...

Of coz it hard for a person to love a person that dun love u at all..
but thk it for urself if u reali do love the person..
if u do will it be hard..it is hard oni if the push u away...
but when u love sumone u'll be willing to do anything...

hahaha..but please all of us are human too...
coz please dun be selfish let the person go completely...
sumtym human gets tired..
get tired of trying...n aft trying so much..the feeling is no longer the same...
of coz its hard..its reali hard..
to love a person that dun love u...but...
howeva if u ove the person the suffer misery is all worth it...
and u nid not show ur love opemly for tt person..
sumtym i feel tt ppl r lying to demself..
u may thk tt person dun love u animore...
but have u tot tt its bcoz tt person noe if he or she c u more..
she or he wil eb affected n noe tt its will hurt eventually...

loving sumone nid nt be shown openly...
u can love the person quietly w/o mentioning..
u noe otehr will says..words fly..
hence u choose to denied in front..
u choose to kip in to urself..sumtym is gd to kip it.
at least u can let go n love teh person in silent...
enjoying the silent

Hmm today went to sch for the last lesson..
which is 2 lectures oni i so hardworking..
wahha no la coz actuli gg to mit fren in sch le so mite as well cum..
tis wek alot of lesson cancel im so hapi wahha

Tody is jinhui bday..so istly of coz...
jin hui hapi 20th bday :) haha
and wenta celebrate her bday...we wenta eat swensen..
den realised swensen aftnnon service is so weird..
teh waiter is weird n everythig is weird wahhaa..
den aft tt we wenta shop for candy;s bday present..
wahha den i help jin hui choose a shirt for candy..
and aso a shin guard....ahha hope she love it ba :)
den wenta help jin hui find shirt but all cannt make it..
coz she gt $100 dolar vorchur ma..wahha
den im so hapi i foung her blue sock..and its alot of blue sock wahha

den aft tt go buy my san dian ying for candy..coz earing not nice ma..
den we rush down go raffles eat catel..mit amy lala n bun :)
haha den we go espl roof top but jin hui a cake whaha
hope she reali enjoy her bday ba :)

Glad tt she enjoy her bday..and tt hope tis will be a memorable bday for her..
yupz and wish u all teh ebst k :) cheers :)

Quote of the day: It takes a minute to have a crush on someone,
an hour to like someone, and a day to fall in love with someone
but it takes a lifetime to really forget someone you have grown to love.

Actuali i agree to tis sentence alot...
on teh road or wif fren when u look ard.
u will like take notice of a few ppl ard..
and tt u'll have crash on a few..juz like i do..
i always see ard with ahbun whaha
and tt gt eye candy..and cute boi..and shuai ge whaha..
den me n ahbun will san ba abt it wahha so fun la..
so it make take a mintue juz to have a crash on sumore..
and aso a mintue to have no feeling towrd tt person too...
tts is crash...

liking sumone is a big word...certainly....
aft toking to a new known fren..u 2 have common topic..
u will turn to like the person...tis is also like...
and u can aso develop sum intertest toward a person coz u 2 click..
tis can be mutual liking too...toward opposite sex...
hence it can be juz one hour of toking.and feeling grows..

aft toking and looking at the person..for juz a whole day of spending tym..
u feel tt that person is special..and tt u wld like to noe the person more..
and u came to realise..
u've actuali fall in love wif tt person juz like tis..
it may be juz one day...its all enough..
howeva do all of u call tis love...or rather infactuation..
jzu to occupied teh empty space in ur hrt??
be truthful to urself..dun hurt ppl...

and of coz when u fall in love..
esp when u fall so deep..when u fall so hard..
how do u expect one to came out..the person fall so hard..
that the person is injured...the eprson cnt move..
not tt the person dunwan to come out of the other perons;s life..
its juz tt the person cant anymore..coz its foreva inside..
the other person have become the person life...and everything..

U'll never forget the person tt u love so much....
dere will be juz a special person in ur hrt tt u'll nv forget...
coz there is too much memories...too much u can take..
u tot u forget it all..btu it may came all back..
u tot so coz ur escaping..dun escape anymore...
be strong la...FACE IT!!!
its juz too too true tt it take a lifetym to forget the person u once loved...
coz u seriously hope the next life u'll mit tt person too..

Hmm morning got WSNA test..
den teh test was ok qte easy but then aft i finish...
i realised teh file name n folder name i put wrong den change the name..
sumthign happen den redo again..kao..act i 1 hr den gg leave liao..
sian den i do til the full 2 hr lo..den abit mistake sian half lar..

aft tt law test lo..den wenta buy towel..
den amy shop dun have so no discount..but nvm la..
gt discount no discount aso lik tis la.. haha juz buy can le..
den aft tt went home den go out play bball le...

wenta play at skcc lo...den play wif a grp of guy...
dey v wat la..abit rough n dey qaurrel among demself sumore
den i play qte irritated..btu nvm i burn dem 3 step away from 3 pt line..
haha so shuang la..til siao den go hm qte early..den slp lo :) wahah

Quote of the day : Giving someone all your love
is not an assurance that he will love you back.
Don't expect love in return, wait for it to grow in his heart,
if it doesn't, be contented it grows in you.

When u love sumone u will want to gif tt person everything..
and not to say of coz u'll gif all ur love...
ans when u love sumone u love wif all ur mite..
u love wif blindness and love wif all u can..w/o asking anythign in return
tis is true love...n tis is reali love..
coz u dun expect anything in return coz tt person is ur everything..
ur willing ..juz willing 2 gif up everything..
at tis pt of tym u noe its love...n its true love..

Dun expect the love to be returned...
rather expect it to grow in the person's hrt...
waiting is all u can coz love nids tym to grow..
if love is a instant feeling..den its not love...
its infactuation..so please be sure wat ur feelign is love....
if it is den dun complain abt waiting coz it reali take tym..
but dun wait til its all lost den u cane all back...tym dun reverse..

even if it dun gow in the person..
be happi be contented coz at least dere is sumthing..
there is sumthign for u 2 hold on..
dere is sumthing for u to thk back abt..
and be gay den the love actali grow in you...
even though it dun grow in the other person..
if u thk its worth it dun let the love died in u..

if the love died so easily...den its not reali a love is it..
that u can say gif up mean gif up..
go thk abt all that..that do u reali love tt person..
if u dun dun hurt tt person please..n dun say til u love the person so so much
and u urself noe at teh back its nth..its purely nth ok..

hmm..ppl go thk ba..i thk its reali true of wat ive said..
if the love died so easily wif a few obtiscle.den nv say tt person hurt u alot a lot..
or rather tt u love the other person alot..its all bullshit abt love

Hmm wake up at 1130pm....
but tis tym round is wake up myself..ha..
my meimei slp til so soundly la.thk she reali v tired :)
den i wake up go bath lo.den watch superstar again..
haha n tt kelly reali sing til v nice la..reali nice..
haha den go mac..study lo...
i do tutorial coz i gt nth to study den was suprtle..
den juz flip through the book of my prac test..
do sum small notes for it coz it open book test ma :)

Aft tt we go skcc play bball lo..
but shao hua nv go coz she nid to study :)
den was super piss...do u noe y...
tt guy tt took my num on ytd...
his Girlfren call me...n kip questioning me la...
wa lau i was so shock la..n dunow at to do..
so i jzu kip saying i sms wrong..
being nice reply sms online aso gt tis kind of thing
den his gf stil scold me say wat plz ask whether he gt gf ist b4 smsing him..
kao..is he sms me hor..is he get my num lo...
i was so angry be nice person gt scolded...
hai...juz my luck la...hope dey wun quarrel can le..
is hard to maintain a r/s so ya i understand..

went play bball..den saw the banana man..
play bball wif him b4 at bh b4 de..haha he improve le lo..
den i injured din move....but ok la..at least gt ppl take rebound waha
awhile lata den we go le lo..din play long..
i injrued aso play awhile..wear slipper de..waha..

when i reach hm den i realised my prac test is act on mon which is tml rather den tue...
die die die...lucky i prepare b4 hand la...
de i study abit more lo..den finish the last bit for my isp 4 tml...
lucky im pro wahaha..den abit enuff slp if nt die wahaha

Quote of the day : LOVE? it's kind of complicted,
but I'll tell you this... the second you're willing
to make yourself miserable to make someone else happy,
that's love right there...

In love will u feel misery?
Is love reali complicated...??
muz one party be willing??

Act its reali wei da to suffer the misery urself to make the other hapi...
and true enuff u'll want ur love one to be hapi..
u thk tt love is complicated coz u guess...
u wonder wats teh other person thking..
ur afraid to make the other person angry or sad...
u wan to gif the best to the other person...
howeva teh person does not want all u gif..
the person rejects it all.the person doubt u..
the complication came in here...

u wonder how u muz do to make the person feel love..
to make the person feel ur everything...
when u realised dere is nth u can do...
coz its all abt the person n not u..
u can oni suffer to make the person hapi...
and becoz of love its worth it..
its all worth it...wif no regrets..no regrets at all..