Quote of the day: It's always better to have found the courage
to love even if you lose it in the end
rather than never found love because
you were too afraid of the challenge.

people always say..when u found sumone u love...
go for it..find gut for it..u nv try u nv noe...

tts wat i always say....

In r/s, it either works or it fails...
however it works coz u try very hard..
or whether it fail even aft u tried hard...
does tis reali matters? does hu break hu ist matters?
if all tis matter it isnt love isnt it..

Love indeed is like a challenge full of obstacle..
there will eb up and down..
and there will be no sense of security...
but if ur too secure in a r/s...
are both of ur reali in love...or being tgt 4 the sake of being tgt...
sumtym the challenge of love is so hard that u dun dare

U r afraid coz love is too challenging n u dun dare to take it..
but will u try again...if a person convince u to take it..
but yet make it fail terribly..
will there be a shadow...will there be a fear...

haha tts me...but i dun dare to take up the challenge...
u all can say im a coward....
u all dunno me right from the start..
u all duno how much i been through...

u all duno tt during sec sch i choose to gif up a guy...
coz of my good fren...coz i noe i wun be able to take up the challenge
as good as my fren can...feelign inferior...
my good fren say im stupid...and tt guy hate me...
and aft then i understand..
loving each other doesnt reali mean 2 person have to get tgt

but yet at 17 i choose to step out....i struggled so much..
but always i step out to take up a r/s...
not becoz tt i like tt person..
truely speaking..ive nv like a person ist in my r/s...
i always fall in lvoe only aft when i feel i shld put in effort
since im in a r/s ive responsibility...

haha but put in effort means puling urself down..
tis is wat i learn...u fall harder when u put in more..
i thk i reali nv like a person b4...
becoz deep in heart i noe i cant bring happiness to tt person
tts y i choose to let go of tt person in my sec sch...
thking back wat wil happen if i n him were tgt tt tym?
haha thk he is the ist person tt i reali like even b4 we are tgt...
ahha now tt we're good fren ahha tts gd isnt it..
its always beta to be good fren den lovers.

hence u all duno me..
dun say i noe the feelign of liking sumone
get it clear tt..interested, liking, loving are three different thing..
coz the true fact is i wun like anyone...will nv..again...

hence ive a code nv hope and if it do come den take it a a blessing...
i can nv say i regret in anything..
coz i choose to gif it up...
and yes i take up all challenges but not love challenge..
im too afraid, too scared..


u all duno how much i go through...
u all duno the strong me is juz too weak in r/s...
im scared to be sad to be hurt...
tts y everyday im smiling saying jokes....
everyone say im stupid but at least giving all love up..
i will nv feel saddness, pain and hurt..
tts s wat i thk...

sumtym u tried so hard til u're afraid to try again..
my decision in sec sch is right..
why i choose not to stick to it..
i shld have stand firm..maybe coz of lonely?
haha a word i learn in pride *MAYBE*
im stupid not to stick to it and not stupid not to try...


- make me believe -
- will dere be tis day -
-tis day tt i will fall in love -
- i doubt so -