miss my teammate suddenly..as becca tag on my blog..
miss the trg..miss the layup...when will i be able to?
duno..suddenly felt tired of things aso...

late at night feel lonely....will i?
or rather i wan silent but yet no silent...
haha wat am i toking la..i dun even understand...

sumtym i feel tt i dun understand myself..
sumtym im juz liek a little kid..
like to depend on ppl..like ppl to pamper me...
wamnting all the attention...
sumtym i feel tt i liek a adult..
having mature thking...n tt ive grow up in my thking..
so wat am i?

feeling lonely at night...
feeling sad at time...
feeling angry at times..
feeling happy at times...
hoping to share wif ppl...

but duno why sad thing always get bottled up...
haha tts me...sumtym i dun even noe th reason behind..
stupid la...
but was qte affected when ppl say bball...
haha i duno...thkign of gifing up...
but gifing up sumtym tt have been wif me for so mani yr..
tt ive built up love n passion for...its reali hard...

yet im afraid of touching it once again...
the pain is too unbearable..
wat if i have to go through the pain again *touch wood*
not oni physically but mentally...
the night mare kip huanting me..til im scared..
i dun reali look forward in gg back on court...
but yet im affected when ppl tok abt bball..
abt frenly..n ive to even take up the bball camp responsiibility...
i duno..i dun even noe if im capable of facing it...
overcome the fear again...tired...scared..
im timid a coward....

gdbye my love...
gdbye my world...
gdbye my one n only...

- please hold on n nv let go..if nt i will fall -
-i afraid of falling, tts y i choose not to face -
-i choose to let go of my love for life-